October 6, 1997 -- I have an Organic Chemistry test tomorrow. I need to study. I do not have time to write this entry.

I can't seem to settle down and study. I haven't done enough yet, I need to cover another 40 pages to be on the right track. I need to do 20 something questions, and do an practice test. The test is tomorrow at 7pm. I have a 6 hour gap between my classes, and I hate studying. No...I REALLY hate studying. I always study a bunch of stuff that isn't on the test and miss ONE IMPORTANT CONCEPT that 15 questions are based on. I always make up some answers. I always get a B. I almost feel like I shouldn't study...I'll get that B whether I do or not, why bother? But I also feel like "This is Organic Chemisty...it will break all the rules. It will dick me over somehow".

It's not a comfortable feeling.

I have a $40 dollar "study aid" sitting on my nightstand. A molecular model set. Have you ever seen one of these? It a bunch of little colored balls with a certain number of holes in them corresponding to the number of bonds each atom makes. And a whole bunch of little sticks to use as bonds. It's supposed to be the best study aid you can use for Orgo. I can't take it seriously. It feels like a toy. Maybe I'm odd...I have no problem visualizing the molecules in 3D with all the different bond angles and such. I can't name the big plastic molecules, I have to draw out the bond-line diagrams to name them. But I have determined that cyclohexane is a fun toy, and if you pretend that the chlorines and fluorines are just punk hydrogens and THAT'S why they're different colors, it makes for a very cool looking cyclohexane.

Man, I am such a geek.

Wish me luck. I'll let you know how it goes.