June 14, 1998

"Every day people are straying away from church and going back to God."

Thank you for signing my guestbook people! It made my day!

Right now, I want to put my fist through something...preferably my physics teacher's head. I just can't do my lab. I tried every single way I can think of to use the formulas he set up for us but I just can't get the right answers. I read the book...it doesn't even mention his methods. And the other lab, which is ALSO due tomorrow has no sheet to go with it to tell me what exactly he wants us to do. Urg. I did what I can on both, but there's still so much to do. So now I have to go to class a few hours early, hunt down a classmate or two, and find out if they got it. I got the third highest grade on one test, the second highest grade on the quiz, but I can't make heads or tails of the labs. Hopefully it won't just be me. Maybe I copied down the formulas wrong...or missed a step (He isn't the most clear teacher I've ever had). I swear though, if I'm just 'doing something wrong' as he wrote on my last lab, I'm going to harm someone. I want to know WHAT I'm doing wrong...or if it's his freakin' lab!

He gave me a 73 on the one lab he handed back. He wrote cryptic stuff ALL over it. I couldn't figure out a single reason, but there was a ton of red ink.

Honestly, I don't care much. Otherwise I'd be more upset. The labs are only worth 25% of the grade (:::snicker:::) And there are ten labs...sure. He's got eight days to get in two more tests, 5 more labs, three or more quizzes, and a few homeworks (to be handed in). I don't see how there's going to be any time to teach. Fortunately, I think I did quite well on my math take-home test. It was easy. I just have to go over the first problem and double check myself. The other four questions were SO easy. Thank god for small miracles.

In other news, mom stopped bugging me to go to church. She didn't even ask me today. She's taking it quite well, I think. I'll never go up to my mother and say "Y'know, This whole Christianity thing is really ugly from the outside. Most of these people don't believe it all anyway." I don't want worry my life away afraid that the merciful God is going to toss me into a big firey pit for all of eternity just because I believe that if God is male, there's got to be a Mrs. God. Why else say anything about gender? I don't think I'm going to burn because I think Darwin was a smart man, and I don't care how powerful God and Mrs. God are, there's millions of years written into this planet's evolution, not just what happened after the first week. Don't be so egotistical people! Humans haven't been around for all of it!